Reasons, Seasons and Lifetimes

I've been meaning to sit down and blog for quite some time.  If you know me, then you know that I've been extremely busy the past few month.  Which is good. Yet, it doesn't leave me much free time to get together with my dear bitches.  

If you don't know me, then I'll give you a little insight.  I work for the banquets department at Lucas Oil Stadium and the Indianapolis Convention Center. We just survived the XLVI Super Bowl.  Which was an experience I'll never forget and hope to experience again.   Madonna was excellent.  I was pretty bummed that I had been able to see the dress rehearsal for the half time show all week long. Then come game day I was stuck on a freight elevator and only got to catch the last minute or so.

 "Like a Prayer" was excellent. Seeing all of the LED lights that had been passed out to the fans lit up around the entire stadium was breath taking. That was one of the longest days I've ever had to work.  Super Saturday I was working to finish up the last minute details. A few of my co-workers and I ended up staying the night and sleeping in one of the suites so we wouldn't have to worry about parking and all the fun stuff that came along with checking into the stadium and going through all the security.  We also had our first staff members due to come in at 3 in the morning.  I didn't actually get out of the stadium until almost 3am Monday morning. I'm not complaining.  I would do again in a heart beat.

So following the Super Bowl we've had events non-stop. I was also sick for a few days after all the nonsense. I think I had a fever for 3 days.  Now it's the beginning of March. ALREADY!! I don't know where the time goes. It seems the older I get the faster it flies.  And with work being some what intense I don't know what day is what.

So, enough about my craziness.  I wanted to write to my bitches tonight.  I'm feeling a little sentimental at the moment. I miss my girls.  I sometimes feel like I'm a horrible friend.  I don't really call anybody. I hardly have time to text anybody. I don't stop by and see anybody.  I have no idea what is going on in my girls lives right now. Unless you count facebook status updates. And I feel really bad about it.

I have some amazing women in my life. I feel so honored to know each and every one of them.

I will be honest, there have been some women (and men for that matter) in my life that I've let in to my heart that have really hurt me.  Those relationships have ceased to continue.  I've tried multiple times with these multiple people to try and mend the hurt. However, some people are just not meant to be in your life.  You know the poem quote, "People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime."  There is a lot of truth to that.  It just sucks when you lose those people that you thought would be there for a life time.  Some people are just focused on their own lives and their own feelings to worry about someone else's feelings.  I'm still learning this. Even though I've known this happens since before I could really understand what it meant.  My mother would remind me of this when I was in high school and I'd fight with a friend. It would be like my world was ending.

I feel like I should state that I'm not writing about any one particular person.  I've lost many friends over the years and it still hurts to think about how much I miss them.  Some of those friends I lost because we drifted apart. Some because we didn't see eye to eye. Some because of moving away. Some because of boy friends/husbands. Some because of jobs.  I'm writing about them all, even my own sister.  I still love them for what they brought into my life. I hold on to those memories like they were a treasure.

I've been lucky enough to lose a friend and years later be brought back together.  Now I don't think I could live with out her friendship. Being friends now, after years of being apart, we're stronger then ever and have a deeper appreciation for one another. I cherish that.  I don't know if she knows how truly lucky I feel to have her back in my life.

And there are people who were in my life that I am really fine with not ever having to see again. Some people are just not meant to be friends. No matter how much effort you put into trying to be friends, in the end it's just not worth the energy and the grief.   There are people in my life who I wish would get over themselves and stop being selfish so that I could tell them what I have been feeling so we could move on and get back to each other.  There are people in my life who I wish would move back home so we could raise a ruckus.   There are people in my life who I wish we could go back to being 8 again with not a care in the world but our barbies and our bikes.

However, we don't always get what we want.

I know that I'm not perfect.  And I'm sure people out there would say the exact same things about me.  I'm not the easiest person to always get along with.  I have my own feelings and opinions and I can be quite the bitch.  I can be very intimidating. I have one hell of a temper.  I hold it in check the best I can.  But I know that I can also be very understanding and forgiving if given the chance.

So my dear bitches.... Even if we don't always see eye to eye. Or drift apart. Move away. Get new jobs.  Know that I will always cherish and hold true to my heart all that I experience with you.  If there is anything that I can ever do for you, all you have to do is ask.

Reason, Season, or Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown